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Showing posts with label suffer. Show all posts

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

Pursuit of happiness pt.2

I was at home, alone in my room, because my sister who I share my room with has gone to Eger to college. After a period of doing nothing and searching for my place- it was such a strange feeling that I have completely nothing to study now- I was listening to some music while looking at my pictures again and again.
The rhythm caught me, especially the track „What have you done” by Within Temptation, because of its melancholic bittersweet atmosphere, the magnificent voice of the singing woman, the lyrics reminding me of a piece of my life, an affair, a guy I am attached to quite strong emotionally, a night at Pécs…
Due to the fact, He is a dancer I started to move my body again- at the office the most time I am sitting, the same as while teaching and studying at home, the melody mesmerized me, I was whirling, smiling, I was under the effect, I was trying my wings, experiencing my edges…
My father came in-without knocking on the door- and started to shout because I have used his company internet connection (for about 2minutes) and haven’t I prepared my bed for sleeping.
Then I just began to cry, shout, I even threw some objects to him because of anger…
And this is the shortness of happiness I was talking about in my latest post.
When something seems to be good (I didn’t say perfect) it is sure that something else will happen that will spoil the pleasure.
Why should one stick to stupid daily routines? Why should one think logically, rationally about everything?
Why just one can not be simply happy, without any reason?

Monday, 26 October 2009

ballade pour une femme perdue(English)

Ballade pour une femme perdue

1.
I wanted to shine
Vividly like the fire.
Closed into glass
To flame radinatly
In the clearness of ice
.
I wish the if the teasing
nakedness of my flesh frayed
Its dazing sweetness burned to dust
Sparkled my hair’s fugitive light.

2.
No.
Plenty of flies infested
My fever-fervent body
They like buzzed me round like petit pests
Injecting under my skin their selfish dirt
Tasting me with their disgusting feelers
Stamping on me with their small legs

3.
My skin is lying marble-silkenly
In the burial-silence of snow,death clear.
Screeching ravens are flying around
My leaf likely fallen blood-drops,
My hair whose shine has burned out.
Just bend closer.
In my eyes’ fragile gem you may see
The aeroplane scratched skies.

Friday, 23 October 2009

ballade pour une femme perdue

1.
Ragyogni akartam
Elevenen, mint a tűz
Üvegbe zárva
Fénylőn lobogni
A jégtisztaságban.

Foszlana le húsom
Kínzó meztelensége
Égne porrá bódító édessége
Szikrázzon hajam tünékeny fénye

2.
Nem.
Legyek özöne lepte el
Láztól izzó forró testem
Apró pestisként körüldöngtek
Önző mocskukkal befecskendeztek
Csápjaikkal kóstolgattak
Lábaikkal megtiportak.

3.
Bőröm márvány-selymesen hever
Haláltiszta hó kriptacsendjében.
Vijjogó hollók hada repdesi körbe
Levélként lehullott vércseppjeim
Kialudt fényű hajfürtjeim.
Hajolj bátran közelebb.
Szemeim törékeny kövében még láthatod
A repülőkkel összekarcolt égboltot.